The words that got me through.

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you made me feel special and i fell for you, but now you ignore me like i was never there and i have to pretend that i don’t care.

It’s tough when someone special starts to ignore you, it’s even tougher when you let them go to save yourself the hurt.

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And when I said ‘I missed you’ I didn’t expect for you to say it back, because I knew you hadn’t. I just wanted to let you know that I had.

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If you are going to love me, love me deeply. If you break my heart, then break it all. If you are going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you are going to stay, then stay forever. And if you want to leave, then do it today. If you are going to change, change for the better. And if you are going to talk, then please mean what you say.

And I can’t help but wonder how normal it is to feel this way. I mean, here I am, in the throes of the most amazing man I have ever known-someone who has so quickly become my world-and I can’t help but question it all. I have never been more sure of my feelings for anyone and never have I been so insecure about someone’s feelings for me. Understand when i walked away, it was to protect myself.

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“I don’t know how to hold on..to anything. In the end, I always end up letting go because I’m scared. But why am I scared? What am I scared of? I’m pretty sure once I find the answers to those questions, I’ll finally be able to hold on.”

Sometimes you meet certain people that can touch your soul in certain ways most people can’t. But you have to let them go because you realize that it just isn’t the best time in your life for them to come. It seems like you meet the perfect people just when you can’t handle them.

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Ever wish you could just get into his head to see what he thinks of you, to see if how he thinks of you, how much he thinks of you,

or if he thinks of you at all?

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You know that feeling when you’re just waiting, waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day, that feeling of both relief and desperation? Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either, and you’re tired, tired of everything, tired of nothing, and you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay, but no one’s going to be there, and you know you have to be strong for yourself because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting, tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else, tired of being strong, and for once, you just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved, but you know you won’t be, but you’re still hoping and you’re still wishing and you’re still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

keep on fighting. Stay Strong.

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I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know were better letting go. It’s like were scared to lose what we don’t even really have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want; it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for him. Because that’s you, that’s who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let go.

I get the whole “He’s the only guy i’ve ever really been in love with” part. It’s hard to let go, hard to move on to someone else and think you’ll never find anyone with such characteristics or chemistry like you two had, but I promise you, once you let go and move on, you’ll find out that, deep down, the only feelings you have for him might be just the fact that you’ll always love him. You may not want him back, you might just be scared to move on without him.

Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you are best without.

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There’s always ups and downs. Not everything is going to go as planned. Not everything is going to work out the way you want it to. Not everything will go along perfectly. But how you overcome that determines how strong you are. Life hits you hard, but you have to knock it down. In order to do that, you have to stand strong.”

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. be strong, i know you can. i believe in you.

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“I’ve tried to block your memory to protect me from the pain, pretend I never knew you, and never heard your name. But the walls aren’t strong enough and I fight my tears in vain. The feeling came creeping through and the hurt is still the same. I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now. The pain will ease in time, and though I know it’s over and what we had is gone, the memories will live forever in a corner of my mind.”

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And you,you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayer
and now there’s color everywhere
you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there’s color everywhere..

“Dear Heart, I’m sorry, but I once again fell for someone that doesn’t like me back..you can feel free to break anytime now. This time, I’m ready for it…”

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Love shouldn’t hurt they say, but then again every rule has an exemption, because with him it does. Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel the word everyone is making a big fuss about, so then I wouldn’t get hurt. Love is the most pain I’ve ever felt in my entire life and believe me it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. Half the time you’d just be crying the other half wiping the tears and in between those a few smiles. I myself used to think that when you’re in love, you’d hear the birds singing but the only thing I heard was the hollow echo in my being. I thought the sky would turn blue but it turned gray and rained on me. I thought that my eyes would be sparkling with joy but it only glistened with the tears.

Why do we have to love someone who could never love us back and why do we dream when we know that those we have woven will cease to be but a dream? I’m not saying that love is a bad thing, it never is. What’s bad is when you fall in love and the person does not fall in love back. I wish that someday I could be in love again without having to shed a single tear and I wish that if I do, love would not hurt as bad.

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“A girl, no matter how many times she denies it, will always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories you’ve left her.”

We got some real good memories with each other. There are things I hold close to my heart, and know I’ll cherish always, because they were times spent with you. Maybe it wasn’t all wonderful, but what is? I had tears, yes, but that’s okay, because I had you; I had laughs; I had love.

Maybe we weren’t meant to be together forever. But I thank God daily that he put you in my life, and made you mean something to me…everything to me. Even if it wasn’t forever.

if ever you look back on times we had,… I hope you smile.

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There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must’ve been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I’m so over you
So baby good lookin’ out

I used to want you so bad
I’m so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

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If a bird falls in love with a fish, where would they live? Who gets the fins and who loses the wings? It’s an irony. That’s how cruel but poetic love can be.

loving someone from a distance means knowing what it is like to have your heart be a thousand miles away, and you still have to breathe. but also believe that distance between two hearts should not be an obstacle; you should do anything you can to be with the one you love.

I wish I could fold the map of the world up to make certain country much closer to one another. i just want to be where you are.

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they say, “If you love a person you don’t give up. You just wait for that person to love you. And if that person won’t change just wait until your heart voluntarily quits.”

just a chance. thats all ive got right now, im not sure of everything else. so maybe i let my heart have this chance, and then if ever she cant be love in return, i’ll let it loves you more and more until she gets really tired of it,  and then maybe soon she will get really exhausted, then maybe she will give up on her own. Dont worry, you dont have to do anything, just let me love you, i guess that is enough.

that is the sad thing about being a girl, you cant just walk to a guy and tell him to love you the way that you want him too. you just have to wait for them to grow in their heart, in the right time. but the other sad thing is, a girl will not always wait for a guy to appreciate her, they get tired too, especially if you make her feel that she got no chance at all. and if you dont love her back now, there is a change that she will find someone who will. because she knows that she deserve someone, every girl deserve a guy who will treat her right.

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I would ride on your shoulders
And look out on the world
Pretending I was big and tall like you
When you were there to hold me
I never was afraid
You made me feel there’s nothing I can’t do

As I kept on growing
We often disagreed
But you let me find myself in my own way
And it’s funny, how just lately
I’ve come to recognize
How wise you are becoming every day
There’s so much you’ve given me
I hope I’ve made you proud
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Memories, they make a smile.

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I was walking after a painful experience when someone came; he came just in time that  i needed someone in my life, he never left me when I needed him most. He stood by me all along. and when with no intentions, i fall for for him. Then after all that has happened, I began to wonder. He did help me forget my sad story and yet he started another one.

tumblr_l4el8dbteS1qah2fqo1_500Before I met you, I was always considered the strong one, the one who never got hurt; I could do anything and never fall. I felt like I was the epitome of invincibility; of confidence. Now you’ve come along, you’ve broken my heart, and you’ve shaken me from that really strong foundation that I had spent years constructing. I found out more about myself than I ever had before. I found that my foundation wasn’t as strong as I thought it was — I found that love isn’t all it’s cracked up to be — and I found that this time, maybe I won’t be able to get back up quite so easily.

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Somewhere in the silence we learn to listen. When we listen we learn. take time to be in silence.

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So do your heart a favor, turn around and leave. It may not be what you want, but girl it’s what you need.

Letting go is hard, but it’s better to let go than to hold on to something that was never meant to be. so hold your head high, gorgeous, and stay strong because once you let go, better things are going to come along. REMEMBER when you lose something,  It just means one thing: You deserve something better.

You deserve to be with someone who makes you happy, who doesn’t complicate your life, and someone who won’t hurt you

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just tell me, don’t make me wonder. just tell me, hurt me, so I can move on…its hurts more not knowing, it hurts more to hope.

“one of the worst emotional pains someone can ever experience, is to hate someone but still love them at the same time.”

 

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